What's in an age?

A friend told me that my feelings were buzzing. I like that expression. Words are nice, and I like to play with them. My feelings ARE buzzing these days. I have been a busy little bee, and collected a Honey.

So, here's the bad stuff: He is younger than I. I know it shouldn't matter, but I can't help thinking, that I am in another place at my life right now. He is still in High School, for Pete's sake! But I can't help it, I have fallen completely for him. And I have to try. I will not deny my love. That's just stupid! So what's in an age? Nothing!

Also I am moving the rest of my stuff today. Maybe I can actually create a life now. I would like that. My old life has been shattered, and in stead of trying to rebuild it from the old pieces, I have discarded the wrong ones, and will only save the good parts. To rebuild something on wrong pieces, will just destroy the fundament, and sooner or later it will collapse again.


New times

I just got home from the midsummerfestival. It was some of the best days in my life. I met a lot of wonderful people, and spend my days having interesting talks. I did a lot of interesting things and met a lot of interesting people, especially two has gotten my attention. One for his perspective on life, and his entusiasm and energy. The other other for being the perhaps nicest person I've ever met, and I have some very nice people as friends. He is so sweet and considerate, an all-good guy. I think he makes the world a little less evil, just by existing, and I admire him for that. For a few days his light shone on me, and it was really painful to say goodbye. I wanted to bathe in his tenderness a little longer, but I had to let him go. I have kept a little of his light in my heart, and will go to bed, hopefully dreaming sweet dreams.

I had a great couple of days. Thank you guys!